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I just realized that I only have five days left with this blog. And part of me feels like I should have some big entry to post. Some sort of conclusion or epic end to it. But no, there won't be. It will most likely be just like any other day. I'll say too much or I'll say not much of anything or I'll post a picture I did or didn't take. This was never intended to really be that big of a deal. More people read it than I ever expected to. So, in five days it will be done and I'll move on to something else.

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I have been in the most off-kilter mood all month. I can't shake the fact that I just feel down. I spent all night with two of my bests. Laughing my ass off. Drinking orange juice at the bar and piling into bed and watching Candid Camera on dvd. On my ride home I got yelled at by some douchebag in an SUV and didn't really care because at least when I'm pushing myself hard I still feel fine. It's coming home and climbing into bed that kills me every time. Matt has been gone for over three weeks and he'll be home in two days, but it won't feel any different until I leave work on Monday. And I know that no one gives a shit if I miss my boyfriend, but it has changed a lot of things for me.

One more night.